Square One is a new class I started going to today. Our church, Watermark, puts it on and it is a 7 week class for first time moms. The class name is perfect - we are definitely at square one in this house! It was really, really good for me to go to this class today. I definitely benefited from getting out of the house and being around other adults and especially ones going through the same thing I am. Being a new mom is amazing, exhasusting, overwhelming, rewarding, emotional, etc. The list goes on!
While I am loving this wonderful little child, it is definitely challenging! This week I have seen that it is hard for me to get a schedule going (which I am sure it will be for awhile) and I am struggling not feeling like I have accomplished anything throughout the day. I know I am - I am caring for this sweet baby's every need - but when you are used to getting up and working and seeing something completed when you leave, it is an adjustment. I am definitely in amazement at the many wonderful women that stay home full time with children. It is definitley more than a full time job! I am trying to make sure I am aware and able to absorb how special this time with Will is. I will be going back to work in January and I know I'll be missing these special moments. I have shed many tears (people tell me that is normal...if it isn't...humor me) after a sleepless night here and there and wonder if I am doing the right thing about 100 times a day everyday. I love him so much an want to be that perfect mom. Oh yeah...I guess that will never happen.
Anyway, back to the class. There are 9 of us new moms and a handful of other ladies that have much more experience than us in the class. Most of the babies are boys - which is funny. I am really excited to have this time to visit with other people in my same stage. The class leader is also a lactation consultant, so I definitely decided to pick her brain. Of course I started tearing up as I talked to her about our nursing issues (which I always do when I talk about it). She was very encouraging. I have been giving Will bottles only for the last 2 weeks. Nursing wasn't going well and he was starving because my supply is pretty low. I have been pumping and giving him what I can but it just didn't seem like much so I wasn't sure if it was worth it. She gave me some perspective and helped me see that anything I can give him is worth it, so I am encouraged to keep doing it. There was also a physical therapist in the class and she gave me some good scoop on my carpal tunnel issue. It was like free consultations! I don't know if I have mentioned my carpal tunnel issues. My left hand is suffering from this and it literally started right after I had Will. I never noticed it before but as soon as I started holding him it started flaring up. Lovely. I have an appt with a hand doctor in a couple of weeks. I am going to find some hand exercises online and see if that helps.
Well that was a lot more info than you all were probably looking for!
Here are some pics of our cutie. The first 2 pics are more recent and the last one is from last week. Look how much he is filling out! He is getting a little chubby. I love it!
This is from today. I put him in a 0-3 outfit. The NB clothes are getting a little harder to get on him so I thought I would try these. There were a little big but not that much!
I tried waking him for pictures, but he wasn't into it. 
Doesn't he look different here? He is changing so much so fast!

Here's a shout out to my friend Melissa who is doing an amazingly wonderful thing by donating stem cells to a complete stranger. She said it is really painful in her bones. She donated today and has to go back again tomorrow. We are proud of you Mel for doing this! We are thinking about you!!!
Hope everyone is having a great week!